Lost in a Dream.
“Lost in the dream of what we are to become we forget to awaken to who we are.”
This came to me during my morning meditation yesterday. For the past five years I am been pursuing a long held dream. This dream has propelled me forward in my life and allowed me to endure much hardship. It hasn’t been easy on my soul or those I love. Realizing my dream required the faithful support and encouragement of many people. Often there were special people who believed in my dream when I didn’t. Following my dream required a tremendous sacrifice on my part as well as those who love and support me.
I lived in my “dream state” for so long that I fell asleep to who I am. Some would say that my dream is who I am but in hindsight I question if this is true.
Pursuing a dream should not cost one his soul; it should not take life but give life. In many ways I am happy that I realized my dream but in many ways I am sad for I haven’t always been happy. I have been more frustrated than ever through the process, for in order to realize my dream I had to let go of parts of myself-- of who I am in order to do so. I have found myself alone with frustration and that deepened my frustration.
So here I am. I have my dream. Now I must once again awaken to myself. I must allow my new life to emerge. I must listen to my soul for what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul?
Yet I trust in God with all my heart for I know that God’s grace is sufficient and God’s power is made perfect in my weakness.
Thank you for all your prayers of support and outpouring of love. Please continue to pray for me and my family. I am extremely grateful to each of you and my friends out there, through your concern and love you have shown me the face of God.
10 Comments:
"We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves to be like other people."
This a quote I read yesterday...if you didn't sacrifice yourself to get your dream you are ahead of the game.
I guess all dreams require some kind of sacrifice to get there...
hope all is well, friend.
Sounds like a profound and lifechanging revelation for you. I was just praying for you as I walked in the office hoping for an update - lo and behold, here it is. :)
This spoke to me :)thanks
Man, you're really going through some stuff! It's funny how sometimes we have to go through some stuff in order to move ahead to the "bigger and better". Better days are ahead, my friend. Great things are in store. Keep listening to your heart. Be kind to others. And be content with today, because tomorrow is a mystery.
Great love!
Oh my... you're really on a journey, aren't you?
It's great to have a dream which is directed to eternity. A dream that is not counted by space and time but by spirituality and immortality. But of course it requires difficulties and sufferings, but that true life is meant to be, and the reward is forever.
Endurance and perseverance.....you model both......thanks for allowing us the privilege of journeying with you....prayers becky
Praying for you. Hang in there. God is here now.
Please join me in praising God, perhaps it will help some. Praise God you have these feelings He's wired you with. Praise God that you are not alone. Praise God for the cross and for all that Christ stands for. Sing in darkness.
dear Rick,
I just saw this, these struggles you describe. Oh, my friend, a big open heart hug for you, and of course, my prayers.
One thing I sense in you is the capability of feeling deeply, and of deep listening to your own inner guide. And when the feelings, the texture and nature of the suffering is listened to, and the feelings are turned over and over until they are more fully known, then we reach a new pinacle of sorts, and we can allow the suffering feelings to go, to flutter, without grasping, but with an open hand, we let them go.
With compassion and love to you,
M
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