The Grand EGO.

“But dont be fooled by the radio
The tv or the magazines
They show you photographs of how your life should be
But theyre just someone elses fantasy
So if you think your life is complete confusion
Because you never win the game
Just remember that its a grand illusion
And deep inside were all the same.” Dennis DeYoung, The Grand Illusion


Are you confused by all the “answers” from those who tell you how your life should be?

What I write here is basically my opinion; take what you like and leave the rest. I am not attempting to pursuade you to believe like me. I am simply sharing my experience; asking my questions; sharing my journey.

Respectfully, I don't care what another believes about God. I would love for any person to feel free to share his or her personal experience of what we call God here.

I am not looking for answers from anyone.

I don’t think I possess answers; particulary the right answers. I am not looking for a guru to tell me what to believe or how to believe; and I certainly am not a guru spewing a doctrine for others to believe. I suspect that deep, down inside we are all the same.

This is my journey and my experience.

I suspect when I think that I “possess” the right belief or “right” answer that I am serving my EGO. Because if I possess the right answer and belief then I will feel defended; my EGO will feel safe, secure, and protected. Exploring the questions without the need to “possess the right answer or belief” scares the hell out of my EGO.

My EGO cares what you believe. My EGO cares what you think. My EGO wants to defend itself. My EGO needs answers. Questions scare the hell out of my EGO. My EGO rejects you if you don’t believe like me because my EGO needs you to believe like me in order for me to be acceptable to myself.

Pardon me while I digress, but just for the record, much of how the word sin is used in certain religious circles makes me want to puke.

But when I go inside myself and listen to my soul underneath all the noise of others’ fantasies, I discover me. I meet my true-self. I listen to what I believe; what is real and true for me. I find myself closer to God; closer to who that God created me to be.

When I pull the curtain on my Grand Illusion, I discover deep inside we’re pretty much all the same.